Introversion shapes how I navigate the world, especially when it comes to conversations. Often, I find myself at a loss for words, unsure of how to keep the convo going. In such moments, I usually end up smiling and agreeing, even if I don’t truly believe in what’s being discussed.
Sometimes, I agree just to bring the conversation to a close, savoring the quiet that follows. Other times, I feel that the other person’s opinion is so strong that any attempt to engage would further the back and forth, so I choose to stay silent.
Meeting new people or joining a conversation with strangers requires quick thinking on my part. As an introvert, I often find myself in situations where I’m surrounded by interesting topics and good company, yet I remain hyper-aware of my presence.
Even when I do speak, I’m cautious about the words I choose and how I deliver them. After I’ve spoken, I need a five- or ten-minute interval of silence—to reflect on whether my point made sense and to recharge before jumping back in.
Of course, I’m not always quiet and reserved; with those people I am very familiar with, I’m quite different. I talk, laugh, dance, sing, act crazy and joke freely. My responses vary depending on the situation and who I’m with. But please, don’t ask my siblings about my personality—they’re terribly biased, haha.
But as much as I enjoy being social, my alone time is crucial for recharging. After spending time entertaining one or two people, my energy depletes quickly, and I often find myself zoning out. Even in the company of friends, I struggle to maintain the same level of energy from start to finish.
My social battery needs frequent recharging, and when it runs low, I go quiet. This often prompts others to ask if I’m okay, but there’s really nothing wrong— just picture your phone with a 0% battery.
Being an introvert also means I’m often the keeper of secrets. I listen a lot, absorbing the gossip, secrets, and problems of others, simply because my silence is interpreted as a listening ear.
I often find myself in the company of extroverted people who talk nonstop, and I can’t help but marvel at how they maintain their energy without needing a break. Despite their constant chatter, I enjoy their stories, and rest assured, their secrets are safe with me.
In social situations, my smile becomes my greatest defense. I use it as a shield, allowing me to sit back and not engage too deeply in conversations while I nod and smile. It saves me from having to respond when I’d rather just observe. Coz after all, even with no words, they’ll still remember the beauty of the smile haha.
So, as an introvert, how do you get away?